Putting down my phone, to pick up a book.

December 17, 2017



I used to love reading as a child, I would write my own little stories and draw the characters. It fascinated me, I loved how I could put all my thoughts down on paper, share all the dreams I had through the lives of others. 

I remember when I wrote my first little story, I was about my toy bird, and my guineapigs. My dad helped me print it out and staple it together, I was so proud. It's so sweet when I look back, I can't wait to do that with my future children. 

As I got older, I got in to my blog, and I didn't really have time for a lot of other things. I used to think I was wasting time, when I could be working on my blog. I wanted my blog to be my job, then I got to the point where I didn't enjoy it anymore. I've only recently go back into it, and blogging is a lot more fun when It's just your hobby. There's a lot less pressure. 

I spend a lot of my time after work just lead in bed, the TV will be on but I will just scroll, and scroll through social media. Twitter, Facebook and Instagram and it's bad for me, honestly my mental health is just shit. I find I see other people with amazing material things and It make me so sad that I'm poor, and I can't afford it. I made bad choice as a teenager which means my job isn't the best, but I think the less time I spent looking at other peoples lives, the more I can enjoy mine. My life is no where near the end, I have to remember that if I work hard I will be able to afford those things, just in later life.

All I see on social media at the moment is babies, all my friends are having babies, which is amazing and I'm so happy for them but It's making me broody. I never used to want kids, but something has changed and I can't wait. It won't be for at least 10 years, I don't know why my mind has changed, but my life plan has taken a turn, which is quite exciting. 

I've taken a step back from social media, as you may have seen I'm less active on Twitter, but I think I've finally found a healthy balance. I've found space to read and calm myself down. 

Since Ibby found me Games of Thrones in the charity chop I couldn't put it down, I managed to read it within a month, which is good for me, and the book is so detailed, and huge, and outstanding. I bought the box set, and I'm obsessed. I'm only on the second book, but it's already better than the series. 

In the last two or three months when I've been reading I've seen a change in myself, not only can a write, and spell a lot better but I feel calmer. I rush to do everything, I plan after work what I'll be doing, and what is the most time efficient. Example : putting my keys in the kitchen before I wee, then getting the pigs food while the kettle boils. It's a weird thing I do but I like to plan everything down to a T, but it's nice to just chill. 

Today, I wanted to clean the flat, clean my guinea pigs out, read my book and blog, and do all the washing. I decided I would do this without my crazy planning, and it's been a lot more relaxing. The pigs have had a run around so they're now asleep, we have this piano music on, and my heart is just calm. I don't know if this is linked to anxiety, but I feel content with my life right now. 

If you're feeling stressed about life, loose yourself in a book and see how you feel. 

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  1. I find that reading does me absolute wonders too. I went through a period of scrolling through my phone before bed and it kept me awake for ages plus made me feel absolutely shitty. Now I always read before bed and it is far more relaxing

    Steph - www.nourishmeblog.co.uk

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    1. I feel silly that's it taken me this long to realize 🙈 As amazing as social media can be, sometimes a throw back to child hood just does us good! xx

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